Waking Up..

salam n hye.....

after a while....I am waking up from this Dreams
a wake up that really hurt who is in it
but this is the thing I need now...
wake up and realize that it will never happen and never work

by this I wish people will stop treat me with sympathy
I don't need the sympathy that you give
well at least that it was you call it
I call it a LIE
a lie for treating me like baby and afraid what you do will hurting my feeling
don't pampered me anymore with that
it build the HOPE in myself and the raising the idea that we will be together somehow
so by this..I wish yo stop lying to me and keep it REAL with me

I am a man to be
not a boy that being a baby
I need and will face the reality
and will never hide behind the sympathy anymore
believe me...if you love me...than please help me
by then yo will never lose me
because when i am through with this
I really need a hand that I trust at the end of the road

on today
I will start my journey
erase all the memory
reformat all the memory
not because i hate you
not because our memory is worthless
but because i want to bring new perspective towards you
because i want to start new

wish me luck
as I keeping my faith to this
In Shaa Allah
when I am done with all this
we will be more than before
the hope will burn and raise new one from the ashes
the pain will be heal
and I will hide the scar
it will looks like new
wish me luck

thanks for the great time
thanks for the memory
thanks for the tears
and thanks for making me walk through your life.....

susah melupakan yg pertama?

salam....
n hye semua....

salah satu benda yg paling susah utk dilupakan adalah benda yg 'pertama kali' bagi kita...

the 1st day we were born
the 1st day we were in primary school
the day we lose our 1st teeth
the 1st time we learn something
n most of all the 1st time we fell in love

the 1st is always the hard one to be forget
because it is the 1st time we pull out all the courage in our self just to say, 'hey, I love you....'
and the worst part for it where we have to wait the answer after that. either it yes or no...
and when Yes is the answer, we are the happy person in the world.

i thought it is easy to let everything go
eventhough the answer is not what i hope so
but still, i thought it was easy...
till today, i think it is not as easy as i say it wold be

gosh, i wish i really dont do that thing that night
even it almost a year most, i really wish i didnt do it
because the effect is affecting me
yeah, i really love that person
it is a love for the 1st sight on 2008...almost 5 years ago...
only after 3 years and half i have the courage to say so....

to Allah i always ask to forget and forgive
but seems both of it never been succeed
wish there is something could make it better
wish there is someone who is truly worth to wait for... in shaa Allah....

as i am typing all this, i really still miss it
wish that the answer was yes
and maybe all this could never happen
but there is something i almost forget that
Everything Happen For a Reason
and i wish i would know what the reason are soon....
in shaa Allah....

for all my friends that have engage and married with in this year,
Congratulations to all.... I pray for the happiness ever after....
in shaa Allah...when time has come, i will be follow all of yours footsteps....
lots of love for everyone.........

BEN ASHAARI dan WEECLICKS

salam n hye semua...

setelah lama tak der entry tetiber aq terasa mcm nak join lak contest dari abg.ben nie....

kalo korang nak join gak pun boleh....jom3....samapai kul 5 hari nie jer taw...

rugi woo......

tuah ayam nmpak di kaki...tuah kita? jeng3!

kalo nak join ko rang boleh Klik Sini !!

kalo x nak join contest pun x per, korang still leh g sana sebab dalam tu ada citer pasal budak super cute taw!!rugi woooo.....

Qhaliff, uncle rindu lah kat awak....(walaupun kita x pernah jmpa) hehe...

so, the question for the contest is 

'kenapakah anda nak menjana pendapatan melalui internet ini' ?

in this case..knapa aku nak menjana income dari internet la kan?

the main reason kenapa adalah sebab kekangan masa yang berlaku sekarang ini...

kesibukan di antara kerja hakiki, kerja azali dan kadang2 kerja yang dtg tnpa diundang.

kerja hakiki tu kerja kita di dalam mencari rezeki...kerja yg dapat gaji bulan2 tuh..

haa..tu lah...(yg x naik2 gaji lagi)..

kerja tu dah sememangnya akan memakan masa kita paling kurang 8 jam sehari...total...

so kalo bnyk yg da setel..bru lah kita dapat lepak2 skit...tul x?

mana la sempat nak g meniaga bagai gerak dari opis ke opis...

department ke department nak jual brg....kan3?

so through the internet, 

ia akan membantu kita tnpa perlu bergerak dan mengambil masa yg terlalu lama untuk sesuatu perniagaan

kerja azali lak tanggungjawab kita sehari2an.....

kemas umah, kemas itu kemas ini,

jaga anak, siap mkan, bsuh pinggan n mcm2 lagi....

dimana kerja yg dtg dengan tanggungjawab terhadap sesuatu...

jadik bila kita dapat jana pendapatan melali internet ni,

ia kana sngat membantu..

jimatkan masa, jimatkan tenaga dan pada masa yg sama tanggungjawab kita masih dpt dilaksanakan.

wlaupun aku nie belum berkahwin dan punya anak....

aku masih ada tanggung jawab kat umah sebab duk ngan parent

umah ni bukan hotel...taw bail,makan tido n then kuar...

tul x?

so to be fair aq pun kene la buat apa yg mak buat....

jadik bila dpt jana pendapatan ngan internet nie...

tgh sapu2 umah....pun leh meniaga lagi...

kan senang kan!!!

^_^

hopefully i hav my chance to generate income through the internet like others.

it is my dreams to have one. 

one day maybe...InsyaAllah.... :)

i dont know what to say...

i am just too frustrated right now....

just too frustrated.....

im just begging Allah to lighten all this....

so I can handle everything up.....

Ya Allah....semoga ujian kali ini dpt aku lalui lebih mudah dari sebelum nie...

memang sukar menyanyangi org lain...

bantulah aku lalui perjalanan ini dengan Tabah...

Titipan Kata

salam n hye.....

ada pepatah melayu berkata, 

air yg ditenang jangan disangka tiada buaya.....

disangka panas hingga ke petang, tapi hujan di tengah panas....

siapa sangka malaysia yang tenang dan aman tiba2 boleh berada didalam keadaan yg sangat getir.....

selama nie kematian di  Malaysia ni hanyalah disebabkan penyakit dan kemalangan...berpuluh...beratus nyawa hilang......mungkin ada yang pandang sebelah mata.....mungkin ada yang x kisah...sebab benda biasa katanya.....

tapi kini nyawa yang hilang disebabkan melindungi sesuatu....sesuatu yg kita jangka akan selamnya aman dan terlindung....tapi kini semua andaian tu boleh ditolak tepi.....perginya mereka menjalankan tugas melindungi negara...melindungi mereka yg suatu hari nanti akan menjadikan masa depan negara lebih cerah.....mesti pilu hati mereka jika mereka dengar kematian mereka dijadikan isu sesetengah pihak...disebalik mendoakan mereka di'sana', meraka yg disini lebih rela bertekak tentang punca kematian mereka......

setiap kali terlihat berita kalian di kaca tv, air mata pasti mengalir tnpa henti....maaf kerana kalian terpksa pergi, demi melindungi tanah yg kami duduki......

semoga tenang dirimu disana...

akan ku doakan kesejahteraan kalian sentiasa.....

jasamu besar tak terhingga.....

tnpa kalian semua di manalah kami semua......

balik keje tadi tengok siaran khas kat TV3....luper apa namanya....serious sedih......sebab terbayang mcm mna kalo ayah aku yg pegi sana n terkorban mcm mereka....

mcm mna aku bile berada ditempat diorang.....

am I ready for that? diorang semua x ready.....benda jadik tiba2....

selama ni semua org kata polis jahat.....skrg nie tgok...siapa yg mati lindungi negara nie? 

apapun....Al-Fatihah untuk semua yg terkorban...

semoga keluarga mereka tabah dan sabar dalam lalui perkara ni.....

Allah lebih menyayangi mereka dan Allah tahu semuanya...

sama2lah kita semua berdoa memohon kepada Allah semoga lindungi mereka yg masih berjuang di Sabah da semoga perkara ni selesai secepat mungkin dengan harapan tiada agi yg terkorban.....